If it's not there, there's nothing to find out

My day was a U-turn.

Explain why? 

1. I was overwhelmed at work because my colleague left for family trip until Sept. 10th with tons of unfinished chores.

2. I was heart broken myself just by telling him that I don't want to be around him anymore.

3. Decided to go to the theater to watch 'The Last Exorcism'.  Most people watch funny movie when they don't feel well.  But I always choose horror.

4. When I heard his voice again, it feels like I'm still strong enough.  That I'm not tired, I could still chase him around and debate him, here again and again.  Now I'm singing.

5. I lost my goddamn Blackberry and only realized it when I got home.  Went back to the theater but it was closed already.  I'm going to call tomorrow and hopefully it's still there.
6.  Couldn't stop wondering why why why am I so clumsy, the times I lost my phone have been countless and I always got it back.  Dropped it on the staircase of an office building, restaurants, left my entire bag at a restaurant (the nice waiter ended up chasing after my car from behind), friends' cars and houses.  What if I won't get it back this time?

Feeling at home?

A mess of my own making, reassuring diversions to keep myself busy and engaged in every corner.  So that I could stop obsessing about my phone and remain positive.  1. Being upset isn't going to bring back my phone.  2. Worst case scenario, even if I can't get it back, it's not the end of the world.

I'm NOT at peace with my hair.  It feels too short after I cut it.  But it will grow back fast, this is common.

With respect to my generosity:

I have no comment.  I'm pretty much a selfish person.  Most of the time is just because I feel good about it, when I'm being generous.

All of these pictures were taken before I realized that I lost my phone.  My shoes are from Free People.

I miss my phone already.